The past

So...Sunday was a day for thinking about the past. I talked to my first girlfriend for the first time in about 4 years. It was quite the interesting conversation. It made me think of all the people we leave behind in life just because we all take different paths. Initially I was thinking, wow, I've gone out and explored the world while she's spent all this time in the same little town, but really everyone goes for what makes them happy. She sounds happy with what her life despite the fact that I would be bored silly and going out of my mind if I still lived there.

We knew we were going separate ways though, and that we were destined for completely different things and that's one of the reasons we broke up. She asked me if I'd do anything differently if I knew then what I know now and that's a tricky question to answer. I think I acted immature at times and that was stupid, but at the same time, if I acted differently I wouldn't be who I am today. I also wouldn't be where I am today (I'm not talking about the particular residence and roommates!), with all the friends I have around me. I value my friends above almost everything.

In the evening I was at my Grandma's place where my brother lives and we watched a movie called A Guide to Recognizing Your Saints. It was all about this guy going back to where he grew up after he abandoned everyone there, and most of the scenes were flashbacks to the times he had. Now, his life had been very screwed up and traumatic and that's why he left, but that doesn't mean you don't miss the place. It was a good movie.

I miss Dawson Creek from time to time, as I have spent about half my life there. I will visit someday but now I also have someone to tell me what's going on there and how life has changed (although she lives just outside of Dawson). She asked if we can be friends again, and I answered, "for sure."